On this day I turn 2-8.
This year has been a complete emotional roller coaster of both ups and downs. A year of self discovery. I’ll start with the most obvious and what most are probably reading this for, I am no longer a bride to be. The details I will keep private, and if you were looking for entertainment about my life you won’t find it here. He was an amazing man and since we have gone our separate ways I can say I understand exactly how I should be treated and will never except or settle for anything less. This is about me however, I struggled with self love (I know that shocks most with my selfie count), judgment from others, questioning life’s timing, and relationships that matter most ( I.e. God, family, friends). Good news? All of those are will continue to be fixable. If you’re wondering the answer is yes. I miss the planning, the venue, the dress, the ring I constantly reminded him I wanted, champagne sharpie notes (insider), his wonderful family who showed nothing but love, and just doing life together. I wish this version of myself would have been discovered a bit sooner…
Oh I also got a new job which I can’t wait to begin! It’s one of those “I worked my whole life for this” kind of jobs! I will be the Head Girls Basketball Coach at Cy Ranch High School. For most you have no idea what the heck that means or why that brings me so much excitement. They were previously coached by Tresa Hornsby, someone I’ve looked up to for years and the 2017 state girls basketball runner up. I’ve got my work cut out for me to say the least (everyone stop now and pray). With that change I had to leave my alma mater and high school head coach behind. To know Ann Roubique is to love her and to work with her is equivalent to winning the jackpot in the coaching world. The entire staff I will miss, but my girls, my sweet girls, they were like my own and I miss them already.
So in my year of 27 what did I learn? I finally learned to walk alone and to be okay with doing that. I learned the power of prayer and that God makes no mistakes. I learned that regardless of whatever struggle or battle you fight your family will always be there. I learned confidence. I learned who I was. All of me.
I’m not fully where I need to be yet but I’m working on it. I’m thankful for the pain and tears just as much as I am the laughs, but if I’m honest their were many more tears than laughs. Cheers to a new job, new place, and life! 28 I made it!